it bothers me how much you want tatay to leave. don’t you realize how much he’s done for us!? he took care of me when you couldn’t, taught me how to tie my shoes, helped me with my homework, walked me to and from school until junior high, cooked and cleaned for us, etc! he did this for more than 15 years and you’re just pushing him away like nothing. now he actually took your offer in leaving for “vacation”. i know he’s getting older, but you don’t have to keep yelling at him for things that, may God forbid, one day you might end up doing as well. yeah, i feel that i am selfish, but he’s like my second dad. i never got to meet the real ones, so he’s the closest thing to a grandfather that i have. it sucks that you have to leave, tatay. watching you make all those phone calls and seeing you pack your things always sinks my heart. especially now, when i can see you walking back and forth with your head down past my room as you’re cleaning out your room. tatay, does it seem like we don’t care? is that why you’ve decided to leave? actually no… it’s because you need to spend time with your family since you’ve been watching over me. ugh… i know that even if you did stay, i still would be stuck in my room not paying attention to you. i know our relationship has drifted apart since the day i didn’t want you to walk me to school anymore and i regret it. although i know you were getting more tired easily, i wish you still had the strength to do all the things you could back then. but i guess that’s only the down side to getting older. i’ll just make the last two days worth it because i don’t know when you’re coming back. hopefully, it won’t be too long.

sorry for the rant followers.